One of those days...

Almost Easter break and I had my Micro exam this week... Did I mention I hate my Micro teacher? He loves to tell stories and he barely teaches. Not that I don't like hearing stories but not in class, especially when it does not related to what we are learning in class. Right now,I am failing in his class and I regret not studying on my free time. I have trouble understanding the words in Economic... *sigh* If I fail, I will feel like a failure! Anyways, I gotta stay positive... It's not the end of the world and I am doing well in my other courses so far. Just as long I don't slack off anymore then it's all good.

Anyway, I took pictures of my outfit last week. I tried wearing this combo... Not something that I wear usually but it was comfty. I tried adding the red bracelet because I found the outfit too dull, didn't turn out so well.

Surviving in the real world

Over the past two weeks, I saw some of my friends who are already applying for University. It seems like just yesterday that we were in our first year of Cegep...Well it was not that long ago. How much has changed since then... I'm still thinking if I should go to University next Winter or not. I really would like to take a semester off.

I have changed a lot these past few years and for the better. I'm still the same little girl back in High school but a lot more mature. My style has changed a lot from semester one to now and I am a lot bolder to try a new hairstyle. Back in Elementary through High school, I refused to get a new haircut anywhere because I was afraid it will turn out bad. I have a phobia about asian people cutting my hair... Maybe I should give those barbers in Chinatown one more chance? Maybe this summer, I'll think about it.

Growing up is... exciting yet scary. You get to choose what you want to do with your life. When we were teens, we wanted to be independent but once we got it, we become confused.

What can we do to survive in this world?

Get out of your comfort zone. It's the only advice I can give now. I realized that once you get out of the things you used to do, used to see and used to hear. You get a clear idea of what you want in life. I personally love the part where I discover... There's just so much to see in this world!

Sorry if I seem too vague... It's almost one in the morning and I am still writing my essay due today at 2:30 pm. -.-"

Here a picture from my trip in China. I love how it reflects the scenery, it's like a world of possibilities whenever I look at this picture.

Not my Vday...

Someone send me this:

and I am staying positive.

Fresh start in 2009 part III

This is my final post of Fresh start in 2009.

I guess I will keep these three goals in mind. Anyways... I will start the rest of my 2009 single. Yes we broke up after 1 year and 25 days. It was not meant to be.

Was I hurt? Of course, I just need time to readjust to the single life again. I cope with this breakup pretty well... Just burned a few memories that we took together. Dumping this and that. Anyone who recently broke up with their love one should get rid of everything that remind you of them. It's the only way to move on... Go spend time with your friends. It's not the end of the world.

I realized I like to get out of my comfort zone and try new style. Something in me tells me to be a little more bold than usual. Poka dots clothes are things I usually don't wear and it's eye catching!

Here a couple of pictures I took with my new haircut:

Fresh start in 2009 part II

Yes I'm suppose to post this up a while ago... Got lazy!

It's February today and I still didn't post any New Year resolutions. I believe in what Will Smith said on TV while I was in Vancouver, if you want to change something start now and not wait till the New Year to change whatever you have to change. I talked with my brother (Non relative one) about what I should change. Well I'll definitely to be happier this year...

1. Be happier.

What do I mean by that? For years, I've been thinking so negatives about everything especially on education, relationship and myself. I want to be able to be more positive about my life. I may not have everything that I want or expect myself to be someone or expect someone to be a certain way because hey... We are not perfect.

2. Not get angry at people or myself.

I know I know... People who personally know me will tell me that I have anger issues. When you live in my family, you will know where I got it from. Personally, I find myself irrational at time. I will be more willing to forgive and not get angry on things that I can't control myself. Why not laugh more instead of being angry all the time? That sounds like a sweet deal.

3. Gain more knowledge by being open mindBy being open mind (To a certain degree), I guess I learn more things rather than refusing to learn anything other than what I am more comfortable in. It's all about challenging myself to new things and be able to grow from that experience. Why not take courses outside of school? Read books that is out of my comfort zone? Actually put more effort in school?

Part 3 of my fresh start in 2009 will be post another day! Have a nice day everyone. =)

Back together

My boyfriend and I are back together. I guess the reason is because we don't spend a lot of time together lately. Last Saturday, he took an afternoon off to spend time with me! ^.^ Yes!! Next Sunday, I'm going to Victoriaville with his family. I want to buy a new camera this week so I can take pictures there. I'm going to check out BestBuy and FutureShop to see.

My dad does not respect the things he gave me. Just because he gave me the camera does not mean he can take it without asking me. When I get my own camera with my own money, I have the damn right to yell at him and make him feel ashamed. Grrr... Lesson 1: Do not share anything with dad because he will take full advantage of it.

Relax... Take a Kit Kat

I am doing free publicity here but this is my situation at the moment. I am taking a KitKat which mean... Taking a break with my boyfriend.

We all need time for ourselves... However, my boyfriend gave me lots of time but I guess distance is what kill me for now. While we are studying at different school, my feelings get mess up.



One thing for sure, I am not embarking in a new relationship anytime soon for the time being.

Be strong

I am...
Not your perfect girl.
Not your gullible goody goody girl.
Not your pride who you can brag to everyone.

I want...
To be considerated like a human being who has flaws.
To be respected for my values and my opinions.
To be proud of my own achievements.

Yes I have...
Western values.
Canadian thinking.
Canadian way of acting.

Don't need to...
Tell me a certain way of thinking is the way to go.
Tell me what to do for the rest of my life when I didn't ask you for advices.
Tell me who to trust and who not to trust... With nothing to back up, you are not credible.

You know what? I fucking love the way I am now and I am not going to fit in your damn idealistic criteria of what a normal person should be like.

Not many people will accept the way you are and look down on you because of your family situation or reputation, the way you look/dress/think/expressed yourself,etc. You know what? I say forget about them. Accept the way you are and try to improve on things that make YOU happy. It's easier to say than do... All it takes is the willpower to do it... Just be strong.